WHEN CAN I FINALLI STOP PAYING?!?
*sigh*

a hulk's call a day keeps bozonut's blues away.

bozohulk is back in camp.(boo!)

& the memories of all that we've done together the 2 weeks after he POP-ed..

2nd day after his POP his platoon had a bbq nite

we took tis' in the car while waiting for his mates. i love tis' shots so much! thank u mates for taking your own time to come wahaha!

3rd day: pizza hut for lunch/dinner

this sphagetti realli rocks!

hulk spoiled my appetite when he unscrewed the cheese cover and it poured all over my pizza. look at his smug face. )(*&^%$#@!

4rd day: our fav. hangout-east coast

when he's drriving, he's a tiring hulk.

when he's playing, he's a fearless hulk.

ROAR!!

Science Centre

on the way therre

u see him eating?

guess he's unaware that he'll be eaten up soon.
hiakhiak!

the block game. bozo & hulk both emerged as champions.

he's way cooler than takumi from Initial D y'all!

OMAGOD dun eat my botak up!

my fav. dinosaur-the triceratops.

he's his own camera-man.

and then he went to test the mike.

and finally, he's on TV!

wat a joker.

tis' is how u play hide&seek.

one goes in tis' way..

the other comes out the other way.

a lil' nice scenery outside Science Centre.

he always takes the best shots. -.-

fountain of bozos

before we said goodbye.

it was a grreat science centre trip! =D

Cycling @ East Coast

i can ride a bike okay!

siaosiao!

@ the peak

our bikes->mine w/ whitey->hulk's with bluey

oh my dear BIN DIESEL.(Vin Diesel's stuntman)

tis' whole 2weeks is so cherished!!!

loving u is so worth it. =)

i believe i can be much stronger than this.
it's so silly.
getting upset when i know it will not happen only once
it's not that i'm angry with u going out with ur friends.
i tink it's that i'm jealous.
jealous that u sound tired and reluctant when u're gonna mit mi.
yet u'll leave the hse 1st ting the moment they call u out.
leaves mi to wonder if i'm realli that not fun to go out with.
hmm...
or maybe i realli am.
maybe i dun deserve the attention, or the company.
hahaha =D
weee i am okay!

hmm..
i am so hungry now my stomach is grumbling.
and feeling so stoopid.
u seemed relieved to hear that i decided not to go out for supper.
so i thought u must be realli tired.
i felt glad and proud of myself that i was understanding and did not kick up a fuss over it.
yeah! =)
but then..
u went out with them to help with moving of stuff..
and then on for SUPPER!
at the moment they called u out.
omagod my poor hungry stomach.
*i'm okay! =D*
wait, i am okay.
hmm and now i can't sleep.
i've been tossing and turning for the past hour.
wondering why.
i feel lyke sucha burden.
I WISH FOR THE HEARTACHE TO STOP THIS INSTANT!! ;<
it just doesn't go away. =(

i am okay! =D
on a happier note..
hui xin agreed to mit mi for mac's brreakfast tml!
weeee!
i'm lyke so hungry now i wish mac's could change their breakfast timing to NOW.
hehheh.
i'm sucha monster gu niang.
asking her to wake up early so that she can mit mi at 8am for brreakfast.
yawns~
i'm lyke.. sucha forcer. =S

I AM OKAY!!! =DDDDDDDD

okay my aims for the moment:

-to work harder after my leave

-to see the better side of people

-to chat more with daddy and gene

-to make time for friends

-to finish hsework on time

-to be a good gf

-and most importantly, to live life completely.

it's not that difficult rite?

so i better be able to do it.

hulk POP-ed today.

woke up early in the morning just to look for appropriate clothes to wear.

finalli settled on a white hooded PCD-style top & my jewel-ed jeans.

with the yellow tube that hx shopped with mi last nite.

oh yea hx and i werre shopping lyke bozonuts last nite.

for tops and lingerie!

thnx ms starnut.

u actualli saw almost all of mi omagod.

ok then went to wash hair at salon, cos i cant blow dry in the fastest speed.

den went to look for hulk's papamama at the coffee shop.

drove down.

took the ferry.

find the best seats.

lynn was behind mi!!! =D

affter a looooooooooong wait and all the parades.

kinda funny y'all.

so we ran towards my HULK!

ahhh that cute lil' ting.

but. my ONLY pic with him is duh..

my eyes werre closed! =(

anws it was a loooong wait before we reached mainland again.

he seems vry happy with his mates.

mi..

as usual.

empty & alone.

shizz.

hate this feeling.

but anws!

it was 1 tiring day.

now that he's a free bird..

well i dun realli wish to intefere in his freedom.

but thnx.

i was realli happy today.

even though i didn't show it.

i feel so incomplete.
i feel that nobody can accept mi lyke my family do.
i feel stressed out having to meet others' expectations of how i should be.
i feel that only work can keep my mind busy.
i feel empty inside.
i feel that i need a change.
i feel that i need simplicity back.
i feel that i need to be appreciated.
i feel that i need someone willing to walk with me.
i feel that i need to be understood.
i feel that i can't click.
i feel that i'm always in my own world.
i feel safe being alone.
i feel happier being myself.
i feel restricted.
i feel that.
I WANT MYSELF BACK.

it's crrazy how tings have turned out lately.
some i wish to change, some i don't.
a lil' regrets herre and therre.
just hope that silver linings will come out after the storm.
yearn for my brreak!!!

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