just a little me-time today. thinking of all the crrazy things that happened this whole month.
couldn't really get a proper rest since it somehow concerns me.
leads me to think.
if all the decisions i've ever made; are they even right or wrong?
the people who i trust everything with; are they even true?
i hate being a total b!tch but sometimes, i just feel like i have to.
i can be very straightforward, but therre are also many things which i keep inside my heart.
which i just don't feel like telling anyone.
i can seem like it's all okay, but in fact i really wish that i can do something better about it.
i do feel betrayed in a way.
how someone can keep apologising like sorry don't even mean a thing anymore.
and at the same time, get away with it all the time.
i no longer trust your sorries.
i just really wish that we weren't that close.

this month has left me drained emotionally.
i'll stop trying to understand what kind of person you really are.
cos' i guess it don't matter that much to me anymore.
trust mi, i'll be much happier this way.



i just really really really miss my hulk.
it's the only thing i ever look forward to now.
i just wanna go back to my fairyland wherre it's only me and him!
=D
don't wish to care about the world.

all i feel lyke saying is.

pls dun gif up on me.

i'll gif my all to make tis' r/s work and i hope u know it.

i need u to trust me.

and i need ur hand to hold mine.

only then can i walk ahead with confidence.

because u'll always be with me.

online shopping is brreaking mi.

i'm kind of brroke already.

help!

life seems to be more proper ever since hulk went into the army.

proper in a way..

1)my un-washed clothes never fill 2 pails.

2)un-ironed clothes didn't pile up.

3)enough sleep for me.

4)concentrate better at work.

5)able to spend more time with my friends

6)happier, don't think as much as before.

& 7)cherish life more.

the week was a torture.

cos' no phone calls from him.

but when he called, my eyes were filled with tears of joy.

and therre were a lot of i-miss-yous in the conversation.

& i really do.

even though he's back in AGAIN..

i just hope he knows i cherished these 3days.

especially friday and today.

looking forward to his next book out again.

=S

hmm..

today was telling tilia about the many characters of front desk.

the people i'm close to to be exact.

i enjoi the company of the many diffrent kinds of friends i have.

friends whom i used to just see as colleagues.

u'll have to agree.

hui xin is just lyke my luffing partner.

i love how we do funny stuff togeda and luff at everyting.

donna can be an over crrapy ass but it's funny having her around too.

i love listening to annabel and her bf stories.

but when she's upset i get upset too.

shizz i'm very much affected by her and i don't lyke it. =(

i don't mean to be bias.

but i love seok seok.

cos' she's not hypocritical.

and puts others before herself.

even though sometimes she's realli a pain in the ass, esp when she can be so attitude she don't care how I feel.

but i kinda love pain-in-the-asses.

lyke her.

-.-

idiot.

front desk is realli messy this few days & i realli wanna pack up the whole place.

it feels as though we haf so much to do and so little time for everyting.

knn.

must chiong sales, must do reports(shizz i havent even started this month's), must plan events, do this, do that.

grr..

i tink 9hrs a day is not enough.

i'm glad i haf a few hrs to claim and some leaves to take.

more time with bozohulk! =D

i'm getting lazier by the day.

i'm getting lazier by the day.

i'm getting lazier by the day.

=(

i realli need to go shopping now.

online.

bozohulk has chosen some tops fer mi to buy.

and i wanna wear fer him to seeeeeee.

=)

seok cloud when u joining mi?!?

phew.
just finished washing my clothes and ironing those that are dried and left at the couch for days.
no wonder daddy's complaining.
hmm..
now i've got more selection of clothes to wear!
=D
BACKACHE. yawns~
*looks around my room*
love it =)
it's been this neat ever since the day i cleaned it up.
i have a sudden urge for chick flicks.
i haven't watched it since 1029384756 years!
must dig out those old lindsay lohan ones and imagine being young again.
ahh...

it's so funny when i tink of aramsa just now.
hui xin was telling mi abt the prank i made on donna, a new staff.
hahahaha.
i actualli forgot abt the joke and she reminded mi!
we both luffed so hard i could feel my insides cursing mi for the ache.
goons.
other than this realli stoopidly funny time with hui xin.
omagod it's practically busy aramsa i hate it so!!!
the event ting on friday is drriving mi nuts.
i'm glad cynthia allowed mi to count it as an OT.
cos' it's my off day and i gotta go back to see thru the event.
and the OT (=D) i can use it when bozohulk books out.
realli need LOTSA time with him.
been trying to give my best in my work.
it's crrazy when therre's lotsa trial but so lil' sales.
it drrives mi bonkers worrying about the numbers.
bozoluck pls come to mama!

bozohulk has been away for 3days now.
out-field, no phone calls allowed.
pitiful bozo for the 1st day.
i realli miss that botak ALOT!!!
i can't get used to this life.
no i cannot.
life without him is crrazy.
eh botak can u hear mi silently screaming in ur ears?
I MISS YOU!!
is my lil' nite fairy doing a good job looking over u?
we're far apart, but lyke u'll always tell mi, we're under the same sky.
everytime we sleep, are our souls lying just next to each other?
dear i realli.. miss.. u.

it's been a long time since my heart has that aching feeling.

maybe it shos that it's still alive?

it sounds lyke a good ting when u said it but why do i feel hurt?

i guess it's cos it reflects badly on me that i'm not a very good girlfriend.

cos' all ur army mates haf their gfs waiting for them at home when they're back.

and i'm out working instead, so u'll have to wait for mi rather than the opposite.

tis' is realli weighing on my mind and i hate that feeling.

am i realli not as good..?

hmm.

i wish for the ache to go away.

as soon as possible.